Seeing the WORLD!!

I'm in JAPAN!! so I plan to share all adventures & things of that nature while I'm here!! BABy I'm back!! STAY TUNED folks!

Peace & Blessings

Anything is possible

It's been a long time coming y'all...yesterday begun a new chapter in my book of LIFE. I have yet to give up on my career plans and apparently GOD has allowed me to stay sTrOng and pull thru the obstacles. What I'm trying to say is I have signed another contract with the Navy and this time it's for keeps!! NO more stupidness going into this journey at least nothing that'll cost me my future. I'm set to leave for bootcamp on the 26th of this month and TRUST & believe when I say you can do ALL things through CHRIST!

I realize that he was with me yesterday hand in hand because I can't begin to tell you how I'm leaving so soon, there are people who have been waiting to get a JOB in the navy since last year or months ago. I was told there is a list of 300 people who need jobs & I managed to come out with one that leaves next Wednesday. That is NOTHING but his WORK! I'm convinced that this is my destiny & I'm on my way to success!

Remember keep the FAITH & work HARD!! You'll WIN every time.

- USN WOMAN

Fearless - Colbie Caillat

Taking Responsibility

I'm lying in bed sick with sooo much on the brain...you know how when its just you & the four walls (no tv, no music, no nothing) you get so caught up in your thoughts on the past & the present? Well today thats just what consumed me, my thoughts. However, it wasn't the thoughts I'm happy about...It was more so the ones you think "what if". It's a lot of things that took place in the last few years that I wish I could change. YES, I have one regret!! I know that some say everything happens for a reason but some things should NEVER FUCKIN HAPPEN!! I know I'm human & all that other shit that people say to help you get through hard times, but making mistakes that could cost you your career or livelihood is SIMPLY stupid!! I'm a very private person but I feel like I'm at the point where I can be OPEN about my life & not be judged on my stupidity or mistakes I've made because I'm correcting them.

May 12, 2009 I was ready to get shipped off to bootcamp in quest to become a UNITED STATES SAILOR(USN). Little did I know it wasn't going to happen like that....Walking into MEPS that monday morning with my head held high only to be told that I had been discharged due to......something that I had experienced once before. The feeling of NOT knowing was one thing but the feeling of having to go home to parents who supported me in this endeavor & have to explain why I'm still home is a WHOLE different set of emotions. From that day to this one I've been STRONG on the outside but on the inside I'm weak! Honestly, I can't even explain how I'm making it because I beat myself up behind closed doors not physically but my thoughts eat me alive. GOD is healing me & I do believe that but I still get to thinking WHAT IF!! It's hard not too! My parents know whats REAL & they hurt just as much as I do but for my mom its still disappointing & one thing I don't want to be is a disappointment. Today, I'm striving to accomplish this goal & when I do boy do I have a testimony. I don't wear my emotions on my sleeve nor feel like my problems should be everyone else problems, so some of my friends might read this and think "why didn't she tell me this?" I just couldn't!! For one its somewhat embarrassing because I was SO fucking confident & sure I was already in like flin and GOD snatched me from my HIGH & said, "naw boo you aint ready, humble yourself". Since then I've excepted christ, trying to hold on tight to FAITH, and trying to let it GO!!

I'm saying all of this to say don't let your past crupt your FUTURE! If the door hasn't closed & locked there is still a way for you to go through it. NOTHING in life is handed to you!! You MUST work HARD VERY HARD to get it!! Knock out everything thats in the way...family, friends, boyfriend/girlfriend(s), haters, ANYTHING that prevents you from your DESTINY!! Trust and believe I know its easier said than done. I'm still planting this into my head as I type it to YOU! but.......

GOD-CAN!

Jola - She Say

sounds like this fella is just keeping it real. who can hate on that? [i'm sure some "real" artist will soon enough...wait for it, waaaaait for it...] this dude seems like the type of artist i've been waiting for. now these LA kids can stop frontin and embrace they own "trunk" lifestyle...

We ARE the WORLD 2010

Honestly this message is BIGGER than any post I've posted...FUCK what ya heard recognize what you see!!!

maturity

i'm 23. i don't know it all. and i don't ever want to come off like i do. but whether it be because of my age, my experience or just the simple fact that i am a human being whose mind works, i be thinkin bout sh*t from time to time. tryna figure somethings out. rationalizing. analyzing. developing a better understanding of how i see the world and everything and everyone in it. and lately ive been thinking about "maturity". so if you're interested, gather 'round, read a bit, comment.

so i don't have a huge back story on maturity. i just felt like i came to a pretty good conclusion on the concept of maturity [or the process of maturing rather]: making better decisions throughout all aspects of your life. and with that being said. there should be an understanding that people are going to mature differently. the uniqueness of everyone's life means that the time, the area, the way, the purpose, and the impact of maturing may/will differ from person to person. but again, it should all come to the point of making better decisions in your life. there's work, school, relationships, friendships, family affairs, or everyday living/thinking. when we're younger [up to about a few years after graduating high school] we just "do". we feel like we take things into consideration but we soon find that some of the decisions we made have comeback to bite us in the *ss because they ended up affecting our lives negatively in the future. [perhaps making a decision that became counter productive towards the person you wish to be] and reading this won't necessarily stop anyone from making any of those mistakes. i've learned all too well that sometimes people have to learn those type of lessons first-hand before they really catch on. it just pains me to hear and see people make such horrible decisions at an age where they should understand that their future depends on almost every decision you make. but you can't wake everybody up. you can't help those who refuse to help themselves.

males/females need to learn to be a bit more discreet with their sexuality. everyone should grasp on to the concept of being a lady/gentleman in the streets, and a freak in the sheets. you don't want the person you're interested in hearing about how you get down from other people do you? that's bad for business. their intentions for you could be screwed up by that. a loss of respect can turn a tender interest into a trophy notch. i'm just being real. [and dudes need to understand that women are not above putting a notch in their belts either...that's life...deal]

...one day it'll all make sense