Dating game.

Do you really know what you want or are you playing the game?

I was talking to one of my close guy friends today about a plethora of things but of course what stood out the most was our conversation about dating. It was funny because it’s the norm for us to go back and forth about how I view men and how he views women. Often in our convos he gets mad cause I end up being right…but that’s beside the point [Lol]. Anywho, as the conversation started I got into telling him about how I was dating this guy for almost two years off & on [I know that sounds crazy but its very true!] and we’ve NEVER made it a casual fling. He’s kept it REAL 110% with everything!! I could go on for days about how this guy is actually really genuine, sweet, honest, caring, and the list goes ON! However, just recently he moved to New Orleans on business for six months and to be honest I was CRUSHED! It was kind of like one of those you don’t know what you got until its gone moments but I also realized with all of his unbelievable qualities he’s still allowing me to play this game…I say that because for one we’ve been dating for two years [who does that?] and its been on again and off again because I’ve spent time getting to know other people, working, school, etc. You know what people do while dating…but as I’m telling my friend the story he stops me and says, “your still SINGLE”. Yeah I know, Bust my BUBBLE! [lol]. He then goes on to say that’s the game and you know it! That made me mad because often times the person you want is right underneath your nose and you just don’t see it because you want to have options and see what else is out there or your like me and you NEED someone that captures your FULL attention. Why does that have to be apart of the game?? Its frustrating when you realize shit after the fact but the funny part is even if I would’ve realized it before hand he wouldn’t be my boyfriend…for the simple fact that I like being single. Honestly, I was crushed because I won’t have anyone like him around. I know it sounds bad but it’s apart of the game ;-) I figure if you can’t keep my focus on just YOU then I gotta keep it pushing and I know some guys feel the same which in there case leads to cheating but that’s a whole other post [lol]. Basically what it comes down to is the games will continue as long as you allow them to…End them here!!

P.s. I personally don’t think it should be called playing games. When your dating anything goes!! Right?