Felt so Real...

The feeling I got was like goose bumps from his fingers rolling down my back. Each of our lips connected and his tongue went down my chin, he reached the peak of my nipple and I instantly arched my back because the sensation became too much. Laying there I realized this was about to get WILD [not that I wasn't ready or couldn't handle it] before I could even say, "Are you ready for this". The dream Ended:-(

P.S. #FAIL

i am ready for love

on my india irie sh*t. [lol] i have never felt this way before. so sure. there's something about my next relationship. it just feels like it's going to be super special. i don't have anyone in mind. [or maybe i do...] but that's not the kind of feeling i'm talking about. it's more so a feeling of confidence. because i've been through my share of relationships. i've broken hearts. i've had my heart broken. and i'm sure i haven't experienced the things others have gone through. but everyone's love story is different. and i know the passion i plan to put in my next relationship. the lessons learned. the different mindset. and i know i'm young but it's what i feel like doing. i have been intensely infatuated with love since birth. and i feel it's about time to embrace that like i've been longing to my whole life. i'm no skirt chaser. and yea i f*cked up in the past, but the type of girl that is affected by that isn't for me anyways. [You and Me - Musiq] i want to be enveloped in love. i'm ready to give all this love i have inside. and i'm definitely mature enough to receive it in return now. and we can definitely do everything the right way from jump. and communicate effectively along the way. and create our own beautiful world. and get lost in it. may seem impossible to some. if not most. but the girl who understands me is out there. and when we find each other...





im.such.a.hopeful.romantic.

This Is It - Michael Jackson

i absolutely love this song! i was talking to my good friend Yogi yesterday and we were talking aboutour excitement for our next relationship and i realized i loved this song because of the story it tells. [i tend to live in a fantasy world when it comes to love...i like it better that way...] please enjoy it. [at least for Michael Jackson]

to show my appreciation

Dear lady.

woman. sweetheart. baby. cutie. love. senorita. mademoiselle. and every other tender name ever created. i love you so strong it's ridiculous. i admit in the beginning i didn't appreciate you. i was young. forgive me. but now i see just how beautiful you are. how sweet and loving you are. and i want to do nothing but show you my appreciation. i'm trying to learn another language just to tell you how beautiful you are. i even call myself taking guitar lessons so i can write you a song saying how special you are to me. corny i know. but i can't help it. you do this to me. but i'm not complaining. i LOVE loving you. especially after starting off so wrong? oh how i would love the chance to show you that i can love you the right way. and since i can't be with you all i think i've come up with the perfect way to show you my appreciation. i am going to find a woman and love her SO right! i'm going to replace the "i" in my life with "we" and marry her. i vow to make her the happiest woman in the world. i'm going to be everything she needs and more. and we're going to raise a family the way we've always wanted to. we'll teach my boys to appreciate, love & respect women from the time they are born. we'll raise our girls as beautiful, respectable young women who appreciate men in the same respect. i know of nothing else i could possibly do to show you how much i cherish you.

je t'aime,
Mychael Anthony Brown I

Its been soo long...

Like thisismycool said its been a lot of sex & relationship talk throughout this blog and I'm totally fine with it and as the comments show y'all don't mind either [lol]. I feel talking about it is a way of excepting your not getting none or you simply just love the art. Whatever the case I'm here to tell ya it's been sooooooo long since I had that oh shit, DAMN! However, it's by choice. I'm not the casual sex type but I admit I've dabbed in it a few times [dnt judge!lol] but its nothing like having that bf to satisfy whenever needed. I've been in the single world for quite some time now, honestly longer than expected but I'm EXTREMELY picky when it comes to mine, so I'm not at all surprised. Lately, my hormones have been ridiculous! I feel like guys when they wake up with a hard on at times [no bullshit]. It's all good tho cause whenever I do release this tension it'll be something to remember at least I hope so lol. What if it was HORRIBLE?? No jinx!!

In my mind...

so lately all my mind has been on is Sex & Relationships. i don't want people to get the wrong idea about me. i'm just keeping it 100. now it's started to bother me lately because whenever i come to blog all i'm thinking about is some Sex im not having or some Relationship i'm not in. And to be honest that bothered me. so on the way to work i got to thinking about what is going on with me. is it the season? i mean since the youngest age these thoughts and ideas have always been in my mind [dont judge me] but i was feeling bad because it seemed like that was all i had come to be about. Sex & Relationships. and being that this is a blog of Eccentric Souls i feel like it would be unfair if that was truly what i was all about. again. so i got to thinking. and i realized that my mind often times focuses on what's missing in my life. when i wasn't in school and unemployed [all through my old blog] that's all that was on my mind. the fate of my future. financial situations. all of that. but now i'm in school and working. so those voids are filled. but now that i'm single and not having sex, my thoughts that i usually keep in the back of my mind are now pushing their way to the front by any means necessary. so until those voids are filled...lol. but i'm not about to blog about any sexual experiences or give details about all the sh*t i may go through in any future relationship(s). [now if it's a crazy *ss sexual experience i just might have to.] over my time spent on these social networking sites and blogging i've learned that those types of things should stay in private. especially if any parties or familiar faces and friends can access such information from these sites. granted i may mean things to come off one way, who is to say how someone else may take it. and the last thing i want or need again is someone taking my words and throwing them in others face in a hurtful way. [yes. it has happened before to me.] well now that everyone knows what's in store, i hope the results of my nonexistent sex life entertain you :)

Dondria's Duets

I'm not sure if every1 is up on being a LIFER, but if your not I'm sure you'll start. Lifers are ppl who live they life [duh lol] but it came from tuning into Jermaine Dupre's episodes of "living the life"on youtube. To make a long story short JD is bringing this new artist out by the name of Dondria. Now I know alot of ppl are a little skeptical about new music cause you've been let down in the past few months [lol]. I'm here to tell you Dondria has a future in music but I'm still not too sure how far she'll actually go. This mixtape that dropped on the 6th intitled 'Dondria Duets' and its full of hot R&B tracks like i invented sex, pretty wings, breakup, lovers & friends and a whole lot more. Dondria brings her beautiful voice and her female perspective to each song. Well here's the link click for a sample and to download check out global14.com

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z0O3d5y4kpg

I Look Good - Chalie Boy

this came on while i was gettin ready to go to this kickback. put me in a good mood. let's see what the night brings...

Close - Tank

so all these thoughts about sex has got me wondering: in my sexual absence, am i going to be ready when the opportunity is right? i won't say "...when the opportunity arises..." because this is by choice. i choose who i have sex with. and everyone isn't a winner. but as these thoughts kept going around my head a song came to mind:

Break You Off

The Roots - Break You Off from Kewellharry on Vimeo.

Woman

so i've been in the mood lately. ima be honest. it's been a while since i've gotten laid. kind of by choice tho. but still. my mind has been in the most freakiest of places lately. my mind is already in the gutter. but don't judge me. i just like sex. it's just something about a female. the warmth of their skin. the softness of their lips. i love every part of a woman. eyes. back. breast. hips. lips. thighs. calves. arms. stomach. cheeks. feet. soul. mind. voice. i could hold a woman for hours. and make love to you for days. f*ck what other people think. woman. i am into you. i'm trying to get tangled in some sheets with you sweetheart. lay on my chest as i rub your back. and please excuse my hands if they gravitate towards your waist. would you think it rude if i wanted to know how you taste? [believe it or not i wasnt trying to rhyme. but don't hate because i did.] and i love to tease. to watch a woman react to my every kiss. every lick. every bite. every caress. mmm mmm mmm. and in the heat of the moment. when our eyes are locked. and our souls are in sync. maybe it's just me. but it turns me on more to see you bite your lip. as your hands run wild all over my body. you're just turning me on even more. i cant help but have you in every position. i love it when you're on top. and when i hit it from the back. i just have to spank it one good time. you've probably been bad anyway. i love to make you cum. it's my favorite past time. maybe i'll slip my hand under your skirt when no one else is looking. i don't mean to tease you. it just means you're on my mind ;) and the things i want to do to you... put on this blindfold. relax. and enjoy the ride. and that's the beginning. when you cum at least twice...

whoa. that got real inappropriate. my bad.
i'm a freak.
may not work for everybody.
but i'll find someone who will appreciate this.
...right?

Thank You

we truly do appreciate all the love you guys show us. whether it's through comments or personal hit ups. a lot of this is some sort of venting. [even if we let our imagination get the best of us sometimes lol] but at the end of the day we're just trying to showcase the beauty of everyday words that many overlook by painting the most vivid of pictures. [or at least we try] and succeed orfail. you guys always seem to show some love and support when it counts the most. and just as a blogger. personally. the comments are always encouraged. we appreciate all past, present and future visitors [spread the word] and we hope you continue to enjoy our blog.

THANK YOU

Fall Shoe

Fashion!! in the Fall= Love of my LIFE! I'm a huge fan of shoes, jackets, and handbags. During the fall thats all you need. Ladies, am I lying? I decided I'd post items that I purchased in fall th@ I absolutely love love love with the hope that y'all will love too lol, if not that's cool too. Oh and if your just as much of fashion fan as I am then feel free to show me what your look is or what you like.

I got these all black spektators a few wks ago.

They're now made for men and women. Thanks Steve Madden!!

Pressure Point!

My neck. Thee most sensitive spot(as in getting the hormones goin) on my body besides my vagine. I know ya'll thinkin why the hell is she tellin us this [TMI] but ya'll know damn well if its not your neck th@ makes the panties wet or d*ck hard its an area not too far from it lol. Sometimes I wish my "spot" wasn't so typical but then again just because u kiss, lick, or touch my neck doesn't mean you'll get me xcited [sorry]. Btw, my neck is just 1 of a few ways to get me in the mood;)

oldie but goodie

[Press PLAY and read along]

"Since I Seen't You"

[Verse 1]
You're 'bout the flyest thang that life could ever bring
Like fresh air to me the blood I bleed sent to me
And I want, wanna build with you

[Chorus]
Since I seen't you, we've been peoples, your're my equal
This love is see through I want to Keep you
I want to be with you

[Verse 2]
Your're like the softest cloud a virgin in my eye
An angel just my size
Wish that I could fall in love with you again
And I wanna build with you

[Chorus]
Since I seen't you, we've been peoples, your're my equal
This love is see through I want to Keep you
I want to be with you

[Post Chorus]
Your conversation is liberating, when we're relating it's a vacation.
Like recreation, I want my way with you

[Bridge]
Ever since the day you walked into my life
I've never been the same then and not again
I hope and pray to God that you stay awhile
..........with me and....

[Chorus]

[Ad lib out.......]

car sex

[viewer/reader discretion advised]


i love car sex. or more so. i appreciate it. you know d*mn well you got it poppin in the car too! that sh*t was super convenient when you couldn't get a spot. i mean. i dig the whole bedroom or living room or family room or whatever room you choose to use. and the hotel thingy. even the beach thingy. but there's something about car sex that holds a special place in my heart lol. oh the thrill of getting caught! [depending on where you parked] maybe it's just me but car sex seems to be amongst the most passionate of sex there is. i mean there's not much to distract you inside the car. especially if you TRYNA get it poppin. you clear everything out the way! and it's just you. and them. [whoever that person may be for you] and some good ol sweaty sex. [...or maybe you really not tryna gettin it poppin. sad face for you.] i'm tryna f*ck up some hair when it comes to car sex. i know that's f*ck up to the girl. but she had to have known what she was gettin herself into beforehand lol. im tryna have that sh*t jumpin and squeakin and rockin and disturbin the peace and alla that sh*t. why not? i bet the neighbors know my name. [shout out to @SongzYuuup] lol i'm being flooded with memories that are a bit much too even put in this post so ima wrap it up here. [no pun. but WRAP-IT-UP via BET] and if you haven't had car sex. get you some. if it's been a while. fix that.

i was feelin old school today...

im thinking there should be a male version of this song...

my ideal girl...

so today i got to thinking about my ideal girl. please don't misunderstand this post. these are just the thoughts that ran across my mind when i was thinking about my ideal girl...

she couldn't be 1 dimensional. her beauty alone would be absolutely amazing. but her intelligence and maturity would be just as amazing if not more. i'm not asking for a supermodel. i'm not asking for a doctor. but a woman who understands there is no reason to mask her natural beauty with make up. don't get me wrong. i understand how make up can enhance natural beauty. but trust me baby when i say, you don't need it. she can hold her own. her style, her grace, her swagger. is like no other. because it's natural. she is who many try to be. original. willing to lounge around the house with me in some basketball shorts and a shirt on a lazy sunday watching football. [and she tries her best to get into the game with me] a girl who can throw on a dress and some heels and turn heads. our sexual chemistry would always seem to be @ it's peak. this relationship isn't based solely on sex at all. but we can't seem to keep our hands off each other. constantly flirting. teasing. pleasing. she's my girl, so she comes first. and then i'll follow. [keep your mind out the gutter...] she can cook. but so can i. and what we both can't, we'll learn. if not from each other. together. and that's the attitude we carry throughout life as well. we motivate each. we inspire each other. she's my ride or die. and i got her back just the same. she knows everything about me. and i, everything about her. we may have come up separately. but we share the same core values. and this bond is impossible to break. we don't have to always have something to say to the other. the company is enough at times. we argue. but we never fight. we disagree. but we're never over. our relationship is a soulful one. music. love. laughter. the perfect tag team. we're addicted to each other...

...just my thoughts. a combination of all of my favorite qualities i've seen women display. maybe this is just a fantasy. but we're all entitled to our own dreams right? well let's just say this is one i can't help but wish it comes true...

Emerald

meet Emerald. my very first car. [he best '92 Toyota Camry ever made. ever!] *tear* i miss her so much! I LOVED HER SO MUCH! and she loved me right back. even when she broke down every now and then. it wasn't her fault. it was mine. i should have taken better care of her. but she knew she was my first. i think she was my first love. she represents a major point in my life. that was the first car i had sex in. and i had some really amazing sex back there. [well all over actually...;)] i had the dark tint all around. i had a nice lil CD player system with some questionable but good beat. [my first car. dont judge me.] and when i was finally able to drive to school! i was the man! so many memories: my first date being able to drive. my first ticket. my first race. my first accident. my first flat. and the sex was amazing! what about driving the freeway for the first time. driving to the beach. and wherever else i was confident she could go. i wish i could go outside and hug her right now :(. she's gone now. she was getting old. barely staying alive for me anymore. it doesnt matter how many cars i end up having in my lifetime. no car will ever compare to my dear Emerald. i really wish i could have her back now :(